Acceptance of the Acceptance

         (For whoever is reading this I hope you find something in anything I post that can help you. My blog is going to be about my experience getting ready for college and my experience there.)
           *Piece Number One*     Any who my whole life I knew BYU was the college for me, I wanted nothing more then to attend that school. It would just be perfect I am A member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter day-saints so I knew that school would be the perfect fit. I worked my butt off in school making sure I had the GPA to go and everything else you need.  As I completed the long application to BYU provo and Idaho I had a bundle of mixed feelings. What if I don't get in? Where will I go? What will my family and friends think? I would be absolutely heart broken, so not getting in was not an option.
     I waited what felt like FOREVER to know if I had been accepted into the school of my dreams. My best friend Miry called me and was screaming " I GOT INTO BYU I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!" I was so happy for her but then a dark cloud of fear came over me I started to feel sick worried that I did not get in. I couldn't find the courage to go check so I waited a wapping three weeks to check. When I finally decided to my hands were so clammy  my heart was pounding out of my chest as I clicked the tab Check my Status. First I opened my letter from BYU provo as I started to read it tears quickly filled my eyes when I saw a sentence I would never forget. Kendall BYU is sorry to announce you will not be attending our school in the summer or fall. I felt lower then lower, I felt as worthless as a white crayon and that's pretty worthless. I was so upset I didn't even want to check BYU Idaho's letter but I did. I started to read there letter and it said those same sickening  words.
    I honestly had so many feelings there isn't enough paper to write it all. I cried and cried and cried for two weeks! Yes two weeks! When I say BYU was/is my dream school I mean it. A huge bundle of my friends got into BYU, people who didn't want to go or didn't deserve to go got in, so I had no idea why I couldn't get it. I was embarrassed and ashamed when everyone at church asked me if I got in and I had to say " No but that's okay ( with a fake smile)" When my friends and family asked me it was even worse. I felt so dumb that I didn't get in. I prayed to know why I didn't get it, I prayed for comfort, I prayed for some answer of what I could do now that I felt like my life was over.
    A few weeks later I received a letter in the mail from Dixie State College. It said I was accepted into the fall term. I couldn't feel anything because it was not where I wanted to go. I told my family, friends, and people from my ward. Everyone thought it was just great, but there was a problem I didn't think it was great at all. I prayed asking is this where I'm suppose to be? Please let me feel comfort that I will be okay here and this is where you want me to go. I got my answer this time, I felt great I felt like I needed to be at Dixie. I have no idea why and I may not ever know but I do know July 23rd my life will change. I do know I will not be alone because two of my child hood friends will be attending Dixie as well and we are even rooming in the same hall. I do know that at the end of every dark tunnel is a light to guide you out. I am so excited for Dixie and all the great things it has to bring, Im so blessed to even be attending college. I have come to realize my life is not over and I have purpose at Dixie. I have accepted the acceptance.
     Life has many trials what counts is how you handle those trials to grow has a person, I have come to accept I am ready to turn the page.
                                         DIXIE STATE COLLEGE HERE I COME!!