What the Dedication of my Dedication got Me

*Piece Number Nineteen*

TODAY HAS BEEN THE BEST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!
  So today has been amazing! Elder Jeffery R. Holland and Dieter F. Uchtdorf came to Dixie to dedicate the Jeffery Holland Common Building and it was so amazing. Jeffery Holland gave the best talk ever he was just saying this building isn't to praise him but to remember it's for the common students who don't have much but hope in there heart. They have common life's, with common grades, common class families. A student who's common but dedicated. It was just so nice it was so spiritual. After words we all rushed to the building we ran over to the building that was being dedicated. Uchtdor was saying the prayer then after words we all said high. I got to HUG him it was amazing I asked to take a picture with him and sadly he said no because there was no time, Then I saw Holland and his wife I shook there hands and also asked if I could take a picture but sadly he also said No as well because too many people have asked and there wasn't enough time. I was feeling bummed that I had no picture but I was also feeling so over whelmed to have the opportunity to even see then to even shake there hands to even be in there presence of Apostles of my church!
    We decided we got our fair share of seeing them so we decided to go to lunch. As I was horcking down my food I saw in the corner of my eye Jeffery R holland and his wife outside in front of the building not with a huge crowd. I stopped eating jumped up and ran outside. I was soooo nervous to ask for a picture again so I made my friend Andy ask for me and guess what He said YES! It was so amazing Me at 18 years old I got to hug an apostle! What a great great great day!

One and Done

*Piece Number Eighteen*

I can't believe that I survived my first week of college and my second! It's hard but not as hard as I thought it would be! One thing I do not like is my teachers are such harsh graders! For example, I wrote this way good paragraph for my PSY homework and my teacher gave me a 7 out of 10, that's total crap because i deserved at least a 9 or 8 not a 7. But whatever it's only one assignment so I just gotta move forward and do better on the next one. Surprisingly im doing very well in finding my balance in playing hard and working hard. I seriously love Dixie so much I love everything about it actually the only thing I don't love is when it rains it rains at random times and it does not rain it pours haha! But other then that things seem to be moving pretty smooth. My roommate and I, I don't really know what to say on that subject. I invite her to everything I do and she always turns me down. She has made it clear she does not want to hand out with me and that's fine I guess. She comes I go, I come she goes and that's just how it is. But I have been truly blessed to be at Dixie and experience the college life!

Bloomington YSA 1st Ward!

*Piece Number Seventeen*

Sorry I don't have many new pictures from my singles ward yet but I promise I will get some this week!

But I am in the Bloomington YSA 1st Ward and I love it! My ward is so huge it had to be split and everyone is just so dang nice! I love my Bishop he is way cool he always remembers my name because his oldest daughters name is Kendall. The first picture is a picture of his HOUSE its freaking huge! He had a pool party for FHE not only does he have One pool But he has TWO! and if you look closely that green thing is  WATER SLIDE a legit water slide It wraps around his trees and down into the pool its freaking insane! The lower bottom picture is a game night that was held, it was fun as you can see from the picture theres like 4 or 5 twister mats taped together to make one big one, that was a lot of fun my ward always does fun mixers I love it!

2,500 People

*Piece Number Sixteen*

 

I have no idea how to start this post because there is not one single word that could describe to you guys the amount of fun I had at this dance!!! This was the Dixie State College Foam dance! Yes I said it FOAM dance. This was the Best dance Thrown by a school that I have ever been to so far! There were 2,500 PEOPLE at this dance. People come from UNR, SUU all over just for this dance. The Dj was so on point it was insane he did not play one crappy song not one! I danced for 3 hours straight. I was sooooo exhausted after this dance but every moment was worth it! Dancing in foam was such a cool experience, I cant wait until next year just so I can do this dance again!

W.O.W week

*Piece Number Fifteen*

This was at the carnival last week during WOW week. It was such a blast! It's just a carnival that anyone is welcomed to its way fun everything is free and theres lost's to do.
  In this picture: Katie, Kelsey, Rachel, and Ashley.

In this picture you will see student government and other people doing our service project!
It was way fun it was at East Elementry, we fixed up the grass area and flower.

This day was sooo awesome! We all got a suprise visit from NATE NOR! It was so nice to see a old friend:)!

Then shortly after We went and had dinner at jimmy johns with ALLEN COX!! Allen is one of my very good friends so it was super awesome seeing him!

  That night we also saw Mad Chad this way cool crazy performer guy! In this picture is Ezra:)! He is head of my committee and seriously a really amazing person!

Okay so Kelsey, Rachel, And I are doing this thing where once a week we are picking a new friend someone random or someone from our ward and heart attacking there door! Heart attacking: when you cut out a bunch of hearts write cute sayings insiders or whatever on them and then you go tape them to someones door knock and run away! Hahah it's seriously a blast like it's such a rush i love it! We have done way more then two but i don't have those pictures up yet.

A little of this and a little of that

*Piece Number Fourteen*

This is a picture of Me, Ashley, Kelsey,Rachel, Katie, and Sara! We went to this drink place called Swig, its sooooooooo good like they have the best sugar cookies and the best drinks! When I go I get Dr. Pepper with coconut aka dirty Dr.Pepper. We went there after doing dorm storms. Dorm Storm: When student government goes to the off campus living and keeps them informed about all the events that are going on at dixie!







                   



This Is a picture of Kelsey,Rachel, and I at freshmen Friday! We defs looked so saucy, that was such a good day. That night we had a splash party were we go to play in the fountain and there was a huge slip and slide and free food it was way fun!









 
There are pictures of us on Friday night! We kinda just made our own fun that night, we were just hanging out and decided we needed to marry the night haha and get out the dorm. So we decided to go to Target, and the Dollar Tree and only spend one dollar on a cool item at each store because you know we are ballin on a budget haha it  was way fun. Then at Midnight we picked up Hunger Games for jill and watched it!

Meet Tanner Forbes! He is one of the coolest guys I know. I seriously love him he is sooo funny and so fun! He is also way talented, he can sing and act and play piano. He's 16 SO he can date ladies ;) hahah! We stopped by his house to pick up a book rachel needed for school luckily shay (tanners bother on a mission) had one for her so we were able to see Tanner that was so nice!

                                          

There are pictures from THE BEST NIGHT I EVER HAD AT DIXIE SO FAR! We party Hardy for the back to school costume party! It was sooooo much fun we all dressed up at jocks with our D crew shirts and a couple people like ashley, her friend, and katie were nerds it was seriously one of the best parties I have EVER been to!
                 

7 hours and 5mins

*Piece Number Thirteen*
   Hey guys!!! I know what your thinking " This blog is for college and you have not even posted!" I AM SO SORRY I have been soooooo busy! I moved into my dorm on tuesday two days early and that was so crazy and busy. Then the next day I had my Student Government retreat up in Pine Valley that was so crazy fun and long! Then thursday was the actual move in day for everyone, so it was just madness. I got to meet my roommate and my mom and sister kennedy came to visit me and make sure my dorm was perfect. We went out to lunch went to this way good drink/treats place called Swig all the college students go there the line for it is always crazy. I FINALLY  got everything settled with my financial aide! THANK THE HEAVENS!! I can finally just relax because things are starting to fall right into place! Then today aka Friday is Freshmen Friday, it started at 10:30am and now its 3:05pm and I finally have a free moment. I have been having so much fun because of student government I know so many people and I have friends outside of my mains. Later on this afternoon is the splash party its when all the dixie students get together and play in the fountain, do slip and slide, and free food its amazing!  Everyone is so nice its way weird everyone says hi and gets to know you its so nice being in a place where everyone wants to be there. HAHAH talk about major mormon problems yesterday this guy in student government was having a crepe party, when i say crepe i mean crepe its not a code word its really crepes haha and when we went it got shut down by the cops HAHAH can you believe?! They said we were being to loud so they had to shut us down no warning or anything we were not doing anything bad hahah what an experience! I so exhausted all I have gotten is 7 hours and 5 mins of sleep for a total of 4 days hahah! Today i also joined this thing called D-crew and its when a group of students sit together at all the sporting events and we get all spirited out and hype everyone up its awesome. At first I was so bummed about not going to BYU but now i know im suppose to be here at DIXIE i just love it!  I have so much to tell you guys but i actually have to go but i promise when i can update i will and pictures are coming soon! Bye guys!

Running and Scrambling

*Piece Number Twelve*

LEFT UNTIL I LEAVE FOR COLLEGE

This is seriously bouncers I can't believe this is my last week to be with my family and my friends.

I am going to miss my family SO much like I didn't know it would be this hard. Yesterday I went to my dads house to spend time with my step mom and siblings and I just started crying because there going to Canada and that was the last day I'm going to see them for a while. I was just jacked up it started hitting me. I started to cry even harder because I'm really going to miss my brother. Like I love my family but I LOVE MY BROTHER, its hard to explain but we just have this strong bond that no one else in my family will ever have I know it sounds kind of mean but thats just how it is. I have 3 days to see all the people that mean the most to me and finish packing it just doesn't seem like enough time, I feel like for the last 2 weeks all I have been doing is running and scrambling to get  everything done at 100mph! Its been a crazy couple weeks now its down to a couple days? That just doesn't make any words, how can time fly by like that with in a blink of an eye just be gone. I have definitely learned what it means when people say life is to short, yes thats so true because time is to short. So enjoy it because it just fly's by without any warning. I am feeling so many emotions there isn't just one emotion to describe them all. Im scared,nervous,sad,stressed, super excited. But there is no time for that its time to grow up because time isn't waiting for me to be ready.

     

Let The Countdown Begin

*Piece Number Eleven*

LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN GUYS

TILL I LEAVE FOR COLLEGE !!!!!!

I find it funny that I leave in Eleven days and it happens to land on piece number eleven ahaha! ( I know I'm a nut ) I can not believe its down to the nitty griddy already, like where has the time gone!! There are no words to express how excited I am to go to Dixie and Finally join the STORM. I remember yesterday when I was just starting high school now I'm getting ready to start college this is crazy right now! It was so odd I woke up this morning at my moms house and my room was completely empty, like walls are bare along with my dresser and closet. It really hit me this morning like holy hannah this is really happening one room is packed and one more to go then next thing I know I'm out tie five-thousie. 

 

Six Bags Later

*Piece Number Ten*
So I started to pack and clear out junk out of both rooms...OH MY LANTA  I can not believe the amount of crap that has been piling up in my room for the past couple years. Packing for college is extremely stressful and over whelming. I didn't realize what a big job it would be, so far I used four plastic bins just to hold my clothes from my moms house!

  This is what my room looked like at my moms house, As you can see I took on way to many jobs at once. I decided to go through everything and decide what I want and don't want, I decided to see what college stuff I have and make a list and last I decided to start packing. Lucky 3 hours and 3 bags latter I was able to make it took manageable ahah.
   Going through my college bin I found out I have a decent amount of stuff to start off with but there's still a lot of things I am missing

This is my college bin even though you can't see everything there's actually a lot in there, it contains:
                    3 power aids
                     white bord
                     pack of travel bottels
                     wireless mouse
                     7 sponges
                     4 tooth brushes
                     a box of bounce
                     2 packs of pens
                     3 air freshners
                     2 packs of Q-tips
                     on the go planner
                     highlighters
                     2 face washes
                     5 packs of tooth paste
                     10pack of razors
                     first aid kit
                     1 thing of shampoo/ conditioner
                     3 romans
                     kleenex
                     wet whips
                      bandaids
                      2 packs of tide pods
                      mesh laundry bag
                       chap stick
                      facial cloths
                      16 gb usb
                      5 body wash
                       deodorant
                      3 shaving creams
                      cocobutter
                      pack of hair ties
                      towels
                      12 pack wash cloths
                      iron
                     bathroom catty
No I would say that's  a pretty good start. Today at my dads house 2 hours and 3 bags latter I was able to go through all the crap I don't want it's becoming crunch time.                   
 

Ticking Time Bomb

*Piece Number Nine* Oh my lanta I am so sorry it has been forever in a day sense I blogged! Where has the time gone! Life has just been so busy! Anywho the latest status is I'm not moving to St. George July 23rd because my step mom thinks I need to stay here and save money, I'm so bummed I'm not leving early :( Ofcourse this wasn't my choice but what can I do. So I'm leaving the first week of August that's not far away at all but it's not July 23rd either! I can not believe I am leaving for school in a month! Everything is happening so fast it's a total ticking time bomb. I still have no idea what's going on with my FASFA I have to call them for the FIFTH TIME tomorrow. I'm so sick of calling them. I'm nervous I'm not going to get any money but you know what I'm going to college I don't care if I have to take out loans and be in debt forever at least it was for my education, I refuse to get stuck at CSN or UNLV and for the people doing that there's nothing wrong with that but it's not for me. I have to go away and get out of here. I have to just continue to pray that things will work out and remain positive. Well Im going to go now I'll keep you updated with my FASFA tomorrow.

Worthy at All Times

*Piece Number Eight*
  So I was sitting her debating if I should blog about an experience I had because it's not college related BUT it did happen when I was in st. george getting ready to go to freshmen orientation. But I guess it can be an experience that I will need in college anyways ill just share the story. So my family and I drove to St.george on Monday to prepare for orientation Tuesday. When we were there my mom got way sick, she was already sick but it got worse. I called my good friend Allen and asked if him and his dad could give my mom a blessing because she's way sick and tomorrow is a very important day. He said of course so we drove to his house.
    When we were there Allen started the blessing and then his dad, brother, and brother in law joined in on the blessing. It was the coolest thing I have ever watched. You could totally feel the spirit, that was only Allen's third time giving a blessing and it was amazing. It was just so cool to know my friend was worthy and honoring his priesthood that he could participate in giving my mom a blessing. He acted in a time of need no questions asked, I gained a whole new respect for him. This experience made me want to make sure that I'm worthy at all times that I'm on the right track of being the best me that I can possibly be. When I go to college and I'm ready to start steady dating someone I want them to have those kind of morals, I want them to be worthy at all times and be able to act in a time of need. Who knows maybe some day ill be able to share this experience in institute and it will make some young man in my class want to better himself. This experience also made me think of a Mormon Message I watched called sanctify yourselves. Its about a little league football team who was playing on a rainy day and one little boy got struck by lighting and a young man who was worthy to use his priesthood had to use it right then and there in a time of need its such a good video. Heres the Link its only like 5 mins watch it!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hew-QARTo00

#IGOTODIXIE

*Piece Number Seven*
   Today I attended Freshmen orientation with my Best friends Sara and Rachel it was a BLAST! I can't even explain  how amazing it was. Getting to the actual building it started in was a little stressful because I couldn't find it and it was making me late but all is well in the end I found it with Five mins to spare ahah! But anyways I went in the Eccles building to check in and right away the admission guy Cj rememberd me! What a great feeling to be rememberd by staff of a college ya know like I just love how personal everyone is.
    Once we were all checked in we went to a meeting where we met with our School dean. He was amazing, he talked about somethings that should always be addressed and he didn't sugar coat it, Then we had a man named Baako talk to us! HAHA he was so funny, he kept saying " Remember if you can't remember my name just think of Taco but with a B!" ahah he was a great speaker! Then we also heard from a lady that is the cultural coordinator , she was awesome to letting us know theres a lot of different people at dixie and we should make an effort to know different people.  The over all opening session was really nice it was a great way to start the day!
   After opening session we were able to split into groups and take a tour of the school, I'm so grateful for that because I needed a tour of the school I've never had one. The best part about the tour was seeing the new library because the funniest thing happened there. So as we were getting a tour of this new section of the school there was this guy checking out books OH MY LANATA HE WAS SO HANDOSME! I like looked at him turned away and then looked at him again real quick because I realized how cute he was! Sara was dying of laughter because she said my face was priceless! Can you blame me? High school boys are way different from what you see walking around college haha so I couldn't help but he shocked! After that we went to lunch the place were we ate was good and thats also the same place you eat with a meal plan so I need to watch out for that freshmen 15 because it's real and active. At lunch it was so funny Rachel and I invited two people to sit with us that were all alone and they both said" Its okay I'm just waiting for my mom/dad." five mins later there parents sat with them ahahah so much for doing something good we just look clueless! But HEY we were trying to do a good deed and who knows maybe someone saw us doing this and decided to pay it forward!
    After lunch thats when DIXIE GOT REAL!!! I made my class schedule , making my schedule was so nice because I was able to meet two reps from the nursing program who helped me get my schedule on the right track to apply to that program. I just LOVE my schedule so much I couldn't have asked for a better one. Most of my classes start at 9:00am and end at 3:30 the latest but thats not every day some days I only have two classes that day so that's nice! Im taking two fun classes because I need it so my first fun class that I'm way excited about is on Wed. and its a women's self defense class!!! Isn't that way cool its going to be so much fun! Then theres this class were three days a week I have to work out for 30mins and just record my hours on a computer, they say a lot of people fail this class because they get lazy but I put my in the day and between classes so I'm hoping that will work better and help me keep that freshmen 15 off ! And I only have ONE class on friday whoohoo thats exactly what I wanted! Then I saw the dorms I go into, for a while I've been complaining about them say there the same size as a dog house split into half haha but there not as bad as the website makes them, there actually cute and homie I have a better perspective about them then I did so I will be moving into those August 16th at 8:00am I'm so excited to know who ill be dorming with I pray we get a long or else its going to be a long 4 months.
      Once my classes were all set in stone I was able to go to the institute building and sign up for those classes, may I just say that building is stunning I love it there I feel like i will be there ofter. But anyways I signed up for A leadership class and a class about becoming a better you. I will be taking those on tuesday and thursday so I'm way excited for that I need classes like that to be able to get threw the week so I'm way grateful for those. I know this post is long but today was amazing you have no idea, just one more thought and ill be done promise! Lastly today I found out I'm on DIXIE STATE STUDENT GOVERNMENT!!! I couldn't believe I did it, I'm on the social committee and I couldn't be more pumped! Dixie is definitely the school for me, theres so many things to do and so much pride and such a strong bond with everyone on campus I'm so happy I'm joining the storm I know I'm going to be happy there!   Here are some pictures from today!

These are pictures by the *FOUNTAIN* aha it's a big deal if you know the story behind it, if you don't you should get the 411 because it's pretty juicy! 

WE ARE DIXIE BOUND<3 FALL 2012 HERE WE COME!!!

Memories that last longer then a Picture

*Piece Number Six* Yesterday I went to President Seagers house to swim ( I didn't swim) with my Shteez. My Shteez are my group of friends from Youth Committee, they are like my BEST friends, I would do anything for them we are family. Anyways afterwords we went to a stake dance our church throws once a month, sometimes there lame and sometimes there boss! This one was THE BOMB DIGGATY ! The DJ was awesome, he like played music videos that went with the songs and just dance clips it was so fun!! Ofcourse I was dancing my life away because that's what I do haha but I was just standing there thinking "this is what I live for!" Memories like these will last so much longer then a picture. I have soooo much fun with that group of friends leaving them is seriously going to hurt my heart because there a huge part of my life! We hang out all the time and see each other all the time, they are my life!
        When we were at the dance I decided to tell my guy best friend a secret I had been hiding for years, this secret was seriously driving me insane becaus I just needed to get it out ya know? So during a slow dance I told him I had liked him for a long time I just never told him because he's my best friend. It wasn't awkward at all and I was totally thinking it was going to ruin everything but I decided to Y.O.L.O ( you only live once) and tell him. Like I wasn't expecting nothing from it, I wasn't expecting hm to say he liked me too or anything like that. But I just had to tell him so I didn't have to live with the shoulda, coulda, woulda. Even though I was sweating bullets at the time I'm so happy I did it, I feel great. Why hide your feelings like how are you suppose to grow and mold into something amazing if you never take risks or have experiences to grow from!
         So after the dance we went to go get slurpees, nothing special but it's not what you do that makes a lasting memory it's who you do it with. I will always remember this short but amazing slurpee run because I was doing it with the people who matter the most to me! They made the experience worth remembering not the slurpee or the dance. I prayed and prayed for friends like them, and it's not couensadence I they came into my life, they play an important role and have helped shaped me into the person I'm becoming.

What matters the most

*Piece Number Five*
    I'm so sorry I've been M.I.A the past couple days my computer has been acting doofy! Any who Friday night my aunt Monica and cousin Jazzy took me to dinner at Bahama Breez, it was so fun! It was so nice to be with them, I haven't seen either of them in what seems like ages! I love being with them, there so fun and chill its a nice change. I LOVE being around my aunt Monica! She is one of the best people to talk to about anything! Secretly I'm really stressed about college (the money and preparation aspect) and I felt like I didn't have anyone to just listen to what I had to say, all I want is for once is to voice my opinions, my concers and she let me do that. I got it ALL out, the best part is not once did she interrupt me. At the end she gave me some very good advice, that's another amazing thing about her she doesn't water anything down because I'm not a child she tells me what I NEEd to hear not what I WANT to hear, I respect her so much for that. That's what matters the most, having a Monica.

      We started to talk about my grandma and how her feelings are hurt because no one is evolving her in my college life. I felt SO bad because I honestly had no idea, I've just been so stressed and working my life away that I'm missing what matters the most! My grandma is simply amazing she is so loving and giving and there's no set of words to express how much she loves me! I owe her a big apologie because I'm totally taking her for granted. Im so caught up in my own problems I'm missing out on opportunities to bond with her and that's what matters the most.

"Friends at first, Friends at last."

*Piece Number Four*
  Yesterday I spent the whole day with my best friend Miry Johnson! It was amazing I got to see her graduate then we went to Smash burger her favorite place to eat, it was just nice. But yesterday wasnt all laughs and smiles, it was also tears and frowns. Miry left for BYU early this morning. Giving her a hug and telling her goodbye was so hard words can not express. Don't get me wrong im happy for her im so so happy for her, but she's like BFF my P.I.C my sister not seeing her everyday is going to suck. I know we will talk, text, and skype but I know it wont be every day. I have NO IDEA how im going to survive college with out her, shes's the only person who really understands me like ask anyone we are one in the same.  I want her to go to BYU and put herself out there, make friends and be happy but at the same time I don't want her to forget me, I don't want our lifes to move in opposite directions. Miry is one of those friends you want to keep forever. I want the best for her and I hope she does everything that she can in utah and gains every experience she needs. I love her so muh and no matter what happens she will always be my Bestfriend. We are "Friends at first, Friends at last."

               





   

Class of 2012 WE DID IT!

   *Piece Number Three*
 Yesterday I graduated and I can't believe with in a blink of an eye it's over, i'm officially out of high school. Where has the time gone? I have no idea where the time has gone. This has been such a blessed journey, I know I wouldn't have gotten this far with out my friends and family. Your unconditional support has made this journey a blessing instead of a burden. I also know I wouldn't have gotten this far with out my Savior Jesus Christ he has rained blessings on me! With him all my prayers have been answered, all my goals have been accomplished, and I am NEVER forgotten. This is the time when I need to start preparing to leave for college. I know I will be fine at times when I feel lost I have to remember I am a beautiful daughter of God and that is greater then popularity and all the money in the world. Thank you to everyone who has supported me along this journey your simply amazing and I can never express how blessed I am and thank you to everyone who is helping me start this next chapter in my life. The role you play means the world.

DIXIE STATE COLLEGE HERE I COME!

       

Rewind,Pause, FastForward

*Piece Number Two*
     Preparing for college is so stressful. Theres so much to think about and the number one thing is Money, Money, Money! I have thousands of dollars due by Aug.20th and I'm so stressed about it. Today probably was the icing on the cake for stress. I finished my FASFA a long time ago (government money) and I thought I was ahead, I thought I would have first dibbs on Dixie money and all would be well. Yeah guess what I thought wrong! My mom was hounding me non stop yesterday about my FASFA because we haven't heard anything from them in a while, so early this morning I decided to give them a call. It was a total blessing I did because turns out I filled out my FASFA saying I'm married, I have five kids, and four of them are going to college with me! ISNT THAT NUTTS! So right away I had to go into my FASFA refill it out and resend it but it's so late in the game I don't know if i'll get any loans or anything at all.
     For those of you going to college or are thinking about it do not put off your FASFA it's super important, it pretty much determines everything in college. Have it checked three times so you don't make the same mistake I did and feel like a complete bone head! I never knew how stressful getting ready for college was. I have so much I have to do with in 45 days. I have to buy stuff for my dorm, sign up for classes, buy books, pay for my tuition,classes,dorm,and meal plan. It's all just so much. At times like this i wish money did grown on trees I would keep my nice and healthy haha. I have always known I wanted to go to college but I just wish I was more prepared emotionally. Preparing for college is more then just getting good grades, it's being smart with money, it's being mature enough to start a new chapter in your life. It's being able to gain that INDEPENDENCE you've begged to have. Well now with a blink of an eye my independence is here theres no rewinding pausing or pressing fast forward. It's here waiting for me to take it full on This is the cross road in my life when I have to actually start making choices on my own and doing whats best for me.
   I know that threw all the stress, the random break downs and cry sessions I will be able to make it in college, Because I have the best support system in the world! My family and friends are simply amazing, I know with out them this journey would be more of a burden then a blessing. For anyone who's reading this and preparing for college or a megga change in your life all I can say is don't ever give up on something you really want. Even though I'm having trails galore this is a tremendous  blessing and I wouldn't give it up for something easier. I will live every moment of college to the fullest, every up and every down because it's struggles like this that shape you into the person you want to become. Take everything  as learning opportunity because it is, who knows maybe someone will  need my help with there FASFA and because of all the jumbled mess I went threw I will have the experience and knowledge to help them. So take in the good and bad, Never Rewind, Pause or FastFoward someone might need that split second of your time.

Acceptance of the Acceptance

         (For whoever is reading this I hope you find something in anything I post that can help you. My blog is going to be about my experience getting ready for college and my experience there.)
           *Piece Number One*     Any who my whole life I knew BYU was the college for me, I wanted nothing more then to attend that school. It would just be perfect I am A member of the church of Jesus Christ of Latter day-saints so I knew that school would be the perfect fit. I worked my butt off in school making sure I had the GPA to go and everything else you need.  As I completed the long application to BYU provo and Idaho I had a bundle of mixed feelings. What if I don't get in? Where will I go? What will my family and friends think? I would be absolutely heart broken, so not getting in was not an option.
     I waited what felt like FOREVER to know if I had been accepted into the school of my dreams. My best friend Miry called me and was screaming " I GOT INTO BYU I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!" I was so happy for her but then a dark cloud of fear came over me I started to feel sick worried that I did not get in. I couldn't find the courage to go check so I waited a wapping three weeks to check. When I finally decided to my hands were so clammy  my heart was pounding out of my chest as I clicked the tab Check my Status. First I opened my letter from BYU provo as I started to read it tears quickly filled my eyes when I saw a sentence I would never forget. Kendall BYU is sorry to announce you will not be attending our school in the summer or fall. I felt lower then lower, I felt as worthless as a white crayon and that's pretty worthless. I was so upset I didn't even want to check BYU Idaho's letter but I did. I started to read there letter and it said those same sickening  words.
    I honestly had so many feelings there isn't enough paper to write it all. I cried and cried and cried for two weeks! Yes two weeks! When I say BYU was/is my dream school I mean it. A huge bundle of my friends got into BYU, people who didn't want to go or didn't deserve to go got in, so I had no idea why I couldn't get it. I was embarrassed and ashamed when everyone at church asked me if I got in and I had to say " No but that's okay ( with a fake smile)" When my friends and family asked me it was even worse. I felt so dumb that I didn't get in. I prayed to know why I didn't get it, I prayed for comfort, I prayed for some answer of what I could do now that I felt like my life was over.
    A few weeks later I received a letter in the mail from Dixie State College. It said I was accepted into the fall term. I couldn't feel anything because it was not where I wanted to go. I told my family, friends, and people from my ward. Everyone thought it was just great, but there was a problem I didn't think it was great at all. I prayed asking is this where I'm suppose to be? Please let me feel comfort that I will be okay here and this is where you want me to go. I got my answer this time, I felt great I felt like I needed to be at Dixie. I have no idea why and I may not ever know but I do know July 23rd my life will change. I do know I will not be alone because two of my child hood friends will be attending Dixie as well and we are even rooming in the same hall. I do know that at the end of every dark tunnel is a light to guide you out. I am so excited for Dixie and all the great things it has to bring, Im so blessed to even be attending college. I have come to realize my life is not over and I have purpose at Dixie. I have accepted the acceptance.
     Life has many trials what counts is how you handle those trials to grow has a person, I have come to accept I am ready to turn the page.
                                         DIXIE STATE COLLEGE HERE I COME!!